And at one point, the call ended mid-sentence. I thought the call got disconnected, so I pressed call again. Then she disconnected. Must be her connection, I imagined.
Nemesis: SOOO SORRY!
Me: :))
Nemesis: Ehm ...
Me: No?
Nemesis: The Viking suddenly walked into the office.
:|
Me: :|
Nemesis: Yeah ... ehm ...
Me: O.O
Nemesis: And I even think he saw you call again.
Me: Fuck
Nemesis: SO SORRY
Me: I'm sorry!!!!
Nemesis: I couldn't close Gtalk fast enough
Me: You ok?
Nemesis: Ehm ... yeah
Dunno yet
How this may affect the situation, I don't know. I know Nemesis has feelings for me. She told me that her heart is saying YES, but logic is saying that she should stay with the Viking.
As much as I want Nemesis to pick me, I know she has to make the right choice, and I don't want that choice to be taken during a fight with The Viking, or me, or anyone else for that matter.
I can't help but feel that I have lost her. I'm trying to stop myself from feeling that, and I know that's probably wrong too.
I know this sounds gay as fuck, but you're reading my blog, so you must have gotten used to it by now, so here it comes:
If there is something called Love, if it exists, if it's as big and powerful as they say it is, Nemesis might be my chance at it. I know she feels a little bit this way too (a bit less girly, probably). If she says "no"... I know I will feel like the only precious thing worth considering in this mediocre world we inhabit is being rejected because it's too much of an inconvenience.
I know it's not fair to think like this. I might have another chance at happiness, who knows... but right now, I seriously doubt it. I can't help it.
Imagine Juliet saying to Romeo "Sorry, my parents told me I should marry this other guy, Paris... You see, he's a Capulet, so... yeah."
Please, let this not be the end of us. Fuck.
